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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 05:38

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Why does my best friend call me ugly and act like she’s joking, but today she looked at me and said “I wouldn’t lie to you”? What should I say back to her?

She wouldn,t have been !

And i lived it daily.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Do people of NYC drive around Central Park all the time? Is there any subway tunnel to cross the park quickly? Is it annoying for people and does it cause traffic?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My boyfriend always verbally abuse me and makes me cry. If I try to tell him how hurt I was, he says to me he loves me and can't hurt me but always abuse me. Why?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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She loved him until the end.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

What real evidence is there to believe in legends such as the story of Atlandida or the lost continent of Lemuria?

What did i know ?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i do to all so called friends.?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Why are Indians so influenced by the Western culture, when the Indian tradition has so much to give?

I was 9 years of age.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why did i forgive my father ?

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I think the readers, may guess!

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He resisted the act ,that day.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was very sick at this time too.

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So, i spoilt her more .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He knew the spot.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But it wasn’t much.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I don,t even have a pension.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was scared of men, in general

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Especially a lifetime of it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was seconnd youngest,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

One cannot live in the past .

When she asked me how she looked .

Would this be the day?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We all went to grammer schools

I couldn’t, believe it.

Put me off passion for life!!

(And it was in our own minds.)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

This is soul school!.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

So whats the point in blame.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She married twice! .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My life is so biszare .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I never cut or harmed myself..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She found it foreign!.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It was going to be , some day.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I could never make a relationship work though!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But, we were locked up after school.

I said to her

I will be 64.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Who then, do I blame.?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Comes on , in middle age.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My family never makes their pension either.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was in good health!

All the time i was locked up.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We were not on the streets..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I waited trembling.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I have no regrets .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im still living with it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I write beautiful poetry .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Ive learnt so much.